If you asked me, where the old Limei went, i don't know.
I'm tired. Tired of pretending, tired of being the social butterfly, tired of trying so hard, and tired of everything. Ever since i got into poly, i don't know what's happening and i'm not the miss popular anymore. I used to have good relationship with every single person, but right now, nope. i don't even know who are my friends anymore.
Slowly i'm drifting away from my secondary school friends. All of us are busy with our own work. I don't blame them. 'cause i myself i busy with my own stuff. I always said that i want to meet people out, but i will just talk but no action. Yea, so what's the point of saying it right? Sigh. I'm really tired. Tired of every single thing. I used to be so cheerful, positive and scold or even nag people who are negative. But what the fuck has happen to me? i've become so negative and so lazy to try anything now. I'm even lazy to text anyone or even replying texts. I used to have my phone ringing non-stop. But now, no.
I just don't wanna care bout anything anymore. i wanna focus on my studies and of course cheer. I wanna get a gpa of 4 in the next sem, and get into the school team for cheer. I guess i'm gonna make myself so busy and tired out. I don't wanna have any free time for me to anyhow think. i want the old me to be back.